Have you ever been at a loss for words? You ever experience something so deeply in your soul that it’s affecting everything else in your being? You sometimes can’t even find words to describe it. It’s these moments that can break us at our core.
It could be the case of a terrible breakup or divorce, loss of a family member or close friend. It could be the realization that everything you’ve ever worked for your entire life was for nothing and now you have to choose a different path in life. Some of these are self inflicted while others you have no control over. To try and describe your pain or confusion to someone seems impossible. The same words come across your mind like devastating, painful, catastrophic, but they don’t feel like they have the weight of the feelings that you are experiencing at this current moment. Nothing quite brings the gravity of the situation to home like you want it to.
You want someone else to understand your pain and relate to you like has happened before. In the case of someone losing their pet, or friend in an accident, someone else was able to be there because eventually someone was around that had experienced that and knew how you felt, but this time is different. This time, it’s more than just loss of one thing or another. This time you don’t understand how to convey your situation to someone else because it’s either so complex or everything hit you in the perfect storm.
In the same way the Spirit also joins to help in our weakness, because we do not know what to pray for as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with unspoken groanings. And He who searches the hearts knows the Spirit’s mind-set, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. Romans 8:26-27Hcsb Bible
Well according the passage above, God knows exactly how you feel. The Holy Spirit helps convey those words that you can’t find to the father. The Holy Spirit helps give us peace in that someone understands our pain and suffering. He knows exactly what is on your mind. He made you after all. He knows everything about you, why wouldn’t he be able to understand your pain that you are experiencing?
The closest relationship that I’ve experienced is my relationship with my wife. Nothing against my friends or my parents and family because I love my friends and family(especially my parents). The difference is that I am much closer to my wife than any of them mentioned earlier and that’s a good thing and is supposed to happen. She is able to complete my sentences, predict my actions sometimes( maybe it helps that I may be predictable a little lol), and even take pretty good guesses on what I would like to eat that night or have for lunch at work. She knows when to give me space and when to call me out on my crap that I carry around sometimes lol.
Though I love her with all my life and ready to die for her if the situation brings that to pass, she still doesn’t know me completely. She may be able to do everything I mentioned earlier, but she can’t read my mind or know every single detail in my life. My past, present and future aren’t in the mind of my wife but rather in Gods.
I say all that to say this. God knows everything about us and there is no denying it. God knows your confused mind, your complicated history and those deep dark secrets that you think are being hidden from everyone. When you are loss for words and don’t know what to say, don’t let that stop you from coming to God. Don’t let your confusion separate you from God, but rather shove you into his arms.
Keep the faith, fight the good fight as the world changes around you, but don’t let any of those changes or confusion in your mind keep you from your prayer life. There is power in prayer. There is power from the Holy Spirit. There is confidence and reassurance given through Jesus Christ.
If anyone has any questions or thoughts, comment below and I’ll gladly respond when I can. I hope you have a great day.