Why I’ve been gone for a bit.

Hey everyone. It’s me again. I was about to fall asleep but I felt compelled to make this little post. I haven’t really been active on here much in recent months and that’s not my intent but as I see that a few people here and there have seen my content on here and may be wondering why I’m not active as much.

Well here’s a summary of this year. I ended up leaving the guard and the pursuit of being a chaplain for the military after thinking that was my calling for 7 to 8 years. I was still at the church as a part time youth pastor and I believed that was where God wanted me to be the most in this season of life and I believed this year was going to be one of spiritual revival for our church and that our church was going to continue to grow as it had been for the past few months. Boy was I wrong and God made sure I remembered the beginning of the year. Our church ended up disbanding this year because of financial issues and decreased attendance due to Covid.

There was no internal or external conflicts with the church. It wasn’t toxic. We were actually growing and then Covid hit and we disbanded and there went my job as a part time youth pastor out the window. So there goes another path that I thought God was leading me that kinda blew up in my face this year.

Then at the same time I had to reduce my hours at my main job and pick up a different job. That wasn’t all bad since I’m able to spend a little more time with my wife since I did that a month ago but it’s also a little less money.

So at this point, my wife and I have been looking into a new church to call our own and I believe we may have found one. But as I try to lead my family and anyone else that looks up to me, I’m stuck trying to figure out what God actually wants me to do with my life in particular.

Yes I know that I need to read the word, pray and be in fellowship with fellow believers in a local body. The basics I believe I have down but I feel that God is calling me for something that I’m not doing yet and I honestly don’t know what that is yet.

Does he still want me to teach kids still? Does he want me to go and get my masters in social work? Find something else?

What is my passion or something that I can do that I would love to do and still have it as a job or possible future endeavor? I honestly don’t know at this point. If anyone knows of a way to help me find that out, comment below please.

In any case, that’s why I haven’t been active on here recently. I have been focusing a little bit on myself (possibly too much) and I honestly sometimes don’t feel qualified to post much on here.